To summarize years of devotion exploring the valleys and peaks of my mind seems to me it will only come across as trivial to you. These words will be taken in and rearranged through your own perception of life. We change every day only maintaining a few small consistencies. That being said we can never really know one another. We show different versions of ourselves depending on each person we interact with. Even lovers cannot break through the barrier of two separate minds. Linguistics, as well as all types of expression falter in the presence of GOD* And this unquestionable presence is short-lived before waves of mystery and question cloud the light of truth.
I confront the edges of opposition. Walking a polarized balance beam. Unharnessed. Brave and afraid. When I lose balance, I suffer the consequences of a broken compass. Drowning in opposing forces, my energy scattered in every direction. A hopeless state I am still learning to find ways to get out of.
If I manage to walk the line, balanced, unwavering, and aware, I am able to tune into the classical symphonies that abstract expressionism has to offer. Dipping my toes into both sides equally, channeling all forces into creation.
The paintings I have curated for this show transcend time, weaving through the past, present, and future. Each piece reflects the intricate dance of devotion. Evoking sensations of overwhelming love, captivating mystery, and intriguing confusion. Diving into the shadows of corruption, glimpses of truth cast a radiant light upon the essence of my dark being.
This exhibition showcases both moments of maintaining balance and instances where I ventured too far into the unknown, becoming untethered and unable to ground myself. Sometimes surrendering to the journey and other times fiercely pushing against it. It's a tribute to acceptance, relinquishing control, and befriending my unknowable self.
A short list of the few truths I am certain of.
I’m alive.
I appear to look a certain way.
I am comfortable in my lovely home.
I know for some reason we are all worried about a thing called “Money”.
We are all getting older.
I am in love.
I am driven by ideas.
I’m confused about many things.
I like to laugh.
Nothing is better than the sunshine.
My physical body doesn’t feel that great.
We are bound by physics in an infinite cosmos.
I’m very sad, very often.
My lips are chapped.
It is 1 am.
It is quiet.
It is calm.
And for now, it is good.
Bear witness to my radiance and shadows, I hope you enjoy the show.